To the girl that never loved me, QUEENELLE
I have told you times without number that you take this relationship for granted. You don’t have any lectures, neither do you have an internet problem, you went a whole day doing God knows what forgetting you have a relationship to maintain.
It just shows how low of a priority you regard your relationship, how much you care and how deeply your love is. To me, you are not ready for a serious relationship and you don’t care.
As nice as you are, your lack of communication in everything (especially in conflict) and next to nothing openness is your greatest undoing.
You are now away, that is when communication should triple to build trust and more security but you are not putting in any effort and leave all for me to do, it takes 2 to tango.
You wake before me in Wakanda, never for once have I woken to see a good morning text from you. While in Jabari, I can’t recall you being so loving or telling me you love me, how am I suppose to believe you when you say same when you are away and that’s why I don’t respond to it.
Truth is, its either you are not into this or you have your options and distractions or a wandering eye. You often put yourself in compromising circumstances and I trust you lesser than I should, based on your actions and words.
You are free henceforth to do all your body desires to do; that fun you really desire to have, please have it. Forget about me and move on with your life.
I have tolerated so much and worked so hard for almost a year. Loads of problems we tried to work through before you came to Jabari, changes were promised, you returned to Wakanda and you resume same again barely 2 weeks, does not show to me a commitment to an improved relationship.
Rather, you believe one is trying to change you and see no wrong in most of your behaviours. It’s not all about you, you have to put in some good effort too while being teachable.
Your misbehaviour has broken the camel’s back and the long rope is now better cut before it stretches too long if this is how it’s going to be for the next 1 and a half years, I cannot afford to waste my time any longer.
I sincerely wish you well no matter what, I have no hard feelings towards you nor your friends. I hope you develop yourself better other than putting it on fate – that what is not meant be is not meant to be.
No two people in a relationship were born perfect, it’s their effort and commitment to make it work that makes it work. We are better off as friends.
I like you but I don’t love you.
All the best.
To my Love Bolu
The letters of your words drenched me like heavy raindrops
splashing on my face.
Words cannot explain the emptiness I feel inside
At the knowledge of my lost love.
Completeness was an illusion until I met you,
Commitment was no word until you came calling.
Bolu, please do not judge my infant ability to love,
For all the times I seemed far away
I was only a breath away.
I’m sorry that my darkness beclouded my thinking.
I lingered on my communication
As I didn’t trust your ability
to bear my depression.
Today I am terrified at your words
But let me fix us
I will mend our broken walls
I will pick up every piece of us
and make it better than the first
I will make us forever Bolu
I wish you were my rib
So I won’t have to miss you
For without you,
I’m like an empty mask without life in it
Bolu, true love is sticking around regardless
I remember when you said we would always be
When we spoke about everything and nothing
When the night slept leaving us awake
And when the morning woke leaving us asleep
I’m sorry Bolu, for all the worries
I cannot say I know how you feel
But I’m certain on what I feel for you
Cos when I said I loved you yesterday
I really meant today, tomorrow and forever.